FRUSTRATION: When a Woman's Fed Up

Frustration comes over me as I sit here and think about you. You fed me words that invoked feeling and emotion; And when I began to seek the actions to back it up, you took me through the motions...but I am starting to think it was all a lie, and I wonder what is truly inside.  I swallowed my pride, and a little piece of me died inside, but it allowed me to give you a try, and you ruined it. You started messing up a little bit, and then a little more, and I threw a fit and then the communication started being a hit and miss and the arguments augmented and I was yelling, "You are not going to treat me like I aint shit!" and the drama persists.  I think it would be best if we just quit, end it.

You see, I am not your average chick.. and for that reason, I must find a man  that I am extremely compatible with. My soul mate.  My other half.  Someone who compliments my style, who is worthwhile, and who makes my light shine brighter. Leaving you alone will not be easy, but I have always been a fighter.

Ok.. perfect opportunity...you are not answering the phone, and I must condone this behavior, and not be the savior of your anger but let it happen. Real talk, if we don't break up soon we will be scrappin'. It is just the frustration that consumes me.. I really think it is best that I let you be...you. And me be me.

I understand that this may be kind of abrupt.. and I never meant to hurt you, just like I promised.. so I will come and see you just one last time to pay homage...to the good days. But when I see you, I am going to remain true.  I will keep it honest and tell you that I cannot stay.  You are crazy. You think that you can take my heart, play, tell me anything, and I should just look the other way or say "ok".

I really hope I gain the wisdom and insight to do this right.  Hold firm to my word and do what's best for me despite my urges to slip back into a routine that could ruin my life.  All these mixed emotions are causing me strife. UGH!! I can't believe I allowed you to get to me and make me feel so uneasy!! The frustration that consumes...