For years I had been lost and unhappy. Unhappy with myself, my life, and others. I saw myself as being one of the most ugly human beings that ever walked this Earth. I thought I wasn't good enough, I walked around with my head down and I doubted myself, missing out on ample opportunities. You see, I KNOW that my mother loved me, but as a child I do not recall moments where I was told my history, my worth. I do not recall being told that I was beautiful, that I was a Queen, but I remember many times being called "fat", "black as hell" and "ugly"..and yes...WORDS CAN HURT YOU and I was scarred.
I felt the need to share this because there just might be another woman out there who has felt or who does feel the same way that I used to...and I would like to let them know...YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!! You are immaculate and supreme, a deific work of art. You have a divine purpose in life...without YOU, life would not exist! Please keep your head up and keep your mind healthy...feed yourself with positive and uplifting thoughts and you will go far. You were made to succeed, just tap into your natural born strength and strive for the best. No, it will not be easy, but no one said it would be, and if they did, they LIED to you (once again).
I am at a much better place in life now and I would like to let everyone know that you too can be happy with yourselves and at peace! All you have to do is be willing to say "out with the old, and in with the new". In with the new attitude, new knowledge, new people in your life, new goals, new energy, new aspirations, new thoughts, and NEW ACTIONS...when your outlook ON life changes, your LIFE will change! This has been an ongoing journey for me but I think I finally found my path! However my trip is FAR from over...everyday is a learning process and I strive for new knowledge on a constant basis...new KNOWLEDGE that I can UNDERSTAND, so that I can turn it into ACTIONS and make WISE decisions... its as simple as 1, 2, 3!!!
No, I did not come to this epiphany all by myself, there have been many people who have helped me and held my hand throughout this journey...some of them know it and some of them don't so I have to take this time to give props where props are due: Thank you Momma!! For giving birth to me and always telling me that I could do anything I set my mind to, and for ALWAYS being there to support me, even when I messed up. Thank you Tobias..for teaching me my math and helping me dig up what has been inside me all along. You pointed out a lot of things to me about myself, both good and bad...and I needed that. Thank you Dorothy...for being an awesome friend and knowing YOURSELF so that your actions could help me to better find MYSELF, whether you tried to or not. Thank you for being sweet, loving, caring, intelligent, and truthful. Thank you Miya...u helped me along my journey and you didn't even know it. Thank you for being a strong black woman, a wonderful mother, and a good spirit (and your FB posts have worked wonders for me..u just don't know). Thank you Fredricka...for being my friend! For listening to me rant, rave, and cry on the phone about my problems...for being with me at my worst times, for all the things you did to help, no matter how small, because those things are what kept me going, and for loving me back as I love you...Thank you Brooklyn...even though we do not talk as much as we used to, you still manage to let me know that you care and that means the world to me; it shows me that true friends really do exist and I LOVE YOU SO MUCH FOR THAT!! Thank you KB..for all the knoweldge you have shared with me, for playing devil's advocate and making me think. You actually helped me discover and place a finger on exactly what I want to get out of life. Thank you Camille...for seeing something in me that I didn't even see in myself, for believing in me and sharing your resources and opportunities with me, I think you are fabulous! Truly an admirable woman! and Thank you Grace...for being a beautiful young lady! In you I see the future...it is for YOU that I strive to do my best and be successful. It is for YOU that I want to make the world a better place. I want you to have a good example before you and I promise not to let you down. I love you so much little sis, words cannot even begin to explain!!!
I would like to thank EVERYONE that has EVER made a positive impact or influence in my life!! Even if your name is not listed here PLEASE KNOW THAT YOU ARE TRULY APPRECIATED!!!!
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